A Living Paradox

One of our students, Tapas Pain, offers some feedback on his perceptions of Aikido practice.

In studying Aikido over the past year, I’ve come to think that my ongoing learning is being driven by one particular Aikido principle (at least as I perceive it as being an Aikido principle).

Aikido is a living paradox, much like a (made-in-Japan) Chinese finger-trap.

It is strong and forceful yet deceptively passive. Fight … and you will fail; absorb … and you will prevail.
While peace and relaxation normally conflict with combat, Aikido apparently relies on their mutual presence and existence.

Strength and force can take you far, yet gently applied mathematics and physics (even when couched philosophically) can take you farther.

Failure to understand this paradox, I think, is what results in Aikido’s (misplaced, respectfully) criticisms – it’s time consuming, lacks kicks and punches of traditional martial arts, and doesn’t help develop ninja (mutant turtle and otherwise) fighting night vision.

Yet, these perceived weaknesses are a necessary component of Aikido’s strengths.

Disregarding all of size, strength, anger and sex appeal, Aikido works from the “opposite” end of traditional martial arts – not an attack, but instead a counter attack.

The result is that Aikido techniques are somewhat yin-yang – a yang defense symbiotically inviting a yin strike, to complete a connection for coexistence.

Unfortunately, I suspect this paradox also makes Aikido mastery elusive – the more you practice the further you feel you are from mastery. And yet again (paradoxically), this is what makes Aikido effective where other martial arts fail.

After all, how many martial artists do you know who can beat up a paradox?

I think that for people prepared to think differently, Aikido can become a life-long passion and be “the” martial art to study. You are not likely to find anything more mentally stimulating than living in a perpetual paradox.

The meaning of sensei

New students are usually interested in learning correct dojo etiquette and sometimes ask about how to use the term “sensei” properly.

The word basically means “teacher” or “mentor” and applies to any black belt teaching a class as well as to the senior instructors in a dojo.

In Japanese, it is not a title, like “doctor.” A Japanese speaker would not identify himself or herself as “sensei,” since it is relative. To some people, I am sensei… to many others, I am “kohai,” or junior. It is not a word you can use about yourself.

The term conveys the idea that someone has been around longer than you have and knows a lot more about a particular subject than you do. By calling someone “sensei,” you are showing respect and asking them to help you.

When people first started calling me “sensei,” I was uncomfortable. I associated the word with my teachers – and I was nowhere near their level. Eventually, I came to accept it as a request for help from my juniors… the people who called me “sensei” were asking for instruction. The people who did not, were not. In fact, I still dislike being called “sensei” by my partner during practice at seminars. I am not there to teach, but to learn.

The instructor of a class should always be referred to as “sensei” on the mat… if you do not respect him or her enough to do that, you should not be in the class. If you are speaking to a high-ranking teacher from another dojo, please call him or her “sensei” as well, to show respect. (If you are not sure who these people are, ask!)

We tend to be a bit informal in our dojo, and I consider many members to be my friends. I do not want to stand too much on ceremony.

So, here is the rule: If you see me wearing a gi, on or off the mat, call me “sensei” (or refer to me as “sensei” if you are talking with someone else). If I am wearing street clothes and we are having a conversation, call me “Jim.” When in doubt, use “sensei.”

As well, do not think of “san” as the equivalent to “sensei.”  For a Japanese person, “san” means only that they are speaking politely, perhaps to an equal or subordinate. “Jim-san” is merely a slightly more polished way of saying “Jim.”

Aikido for women

One of our long-time female members, Natalia Vorsyna, offered some insight on what she gets out of Aikido practice…

“When I started practicing Aikido, I was looking for an interesting alternative to the boring gym routine and for an appropriate way for a female to learn some self-defense skills.

I think I’m getting much more than that. In addition to being a great, well-balanced physical activity, Aikido teaches me to be more self-confident, flexible, calm and relaxed. It is a good way to learn how to stay focused and present in any situation.

Even if I never have to use the self-defense skills I’m getting here, Aikido tactics are a great way to resolve any non-physical conflicts in our lives.

Besides, it’s always fun and it puts me in good mood – no matter what it was before I entered the dojo!”

– Natalia Vorsyna

New Year’s remarks… Consistency!

Every year at this time, Yumi-sensei or I try to offer some remarks on training for the coming year.

This year, I would like to talk about consistency. Regular training is the absolute foundation of progress in Aikido. Coming without fail on the days you have scheduled for training is extremely important.

I once complimented one of my senior students, who had become a teacher in his own right, on his regular attendance. He was a little nonplussed. He said that for him, going to class was like brushing his teeth… no further thought was required, and skipping was unthinkable.

Everyone has to make trade-offs with their family and their work to arrive at a practical training schedule. Sometimes you can’t adhere to that schedule… People take holidays with their families,  life unavoidably gets in the way or you get a nagging injury or become ill with a cold or the flu. If you get thrown off the horse by some misadventure, get back on as soon as you can.

Even if you can’t train for some reason, try to come to the dojo and watch class at your scheduled time. For that reason, we count “watching” practice the same as attending the class.

I have often said that the most difficult technique in Aikido is walking into the dojo. If you can do that, all the rest will follow.

Coming back to Aikido

by Chris Robertson

It has been 18 years since I last sat in seiza on the tatami. Even though I have changed a good deal, lived in a number of different countries, got married and had kids, Aikido is still Aikido.

That is a good thing. Since I have been in Toronto (12 years) I have been saying I want to get back to it – or so says my wife. For many reasons, though, it did not happen. I did do some research about the Aikido landscape in Toronto.

What changed? When I realized my six-year old could do with some help with self-esteem, coordination and dealing with falls, the answer was immediately on my lips; Aikido. Furthermore, I also knew where to find a dojo nearby that had a kids’ class. It took just one visit to the dojo to make me realize how much I missed Aikido and two visits for my six-year old to get hooked. Every visit for a kids’ class just reinforced to me that I wanted to return. Return I did.

Several things eased any initial concerns that I might have had. At 45+ years old, I was neither the youngest person on the mat, nor the first to return after many years away. Wearing contact lenses this time around eliminated any concerns about breaking a pair of expensive glasses. More important, since the two senior instructors, Yumi-sensei (6th degree black belt) and Jim-sensei (5th degree), have 75 years of Aikido experience between them, I knew they would be able to ease me back into practice without too much pain on anybody’s part.

What was it like to return to the tatami after 18 years? When I first sat in seiza, it was as if all the years had fallen away. My ankles told me they were still as stiff as they were 18 years ago. It was a “How could I ever have forgotten this pain” moment. Also, having Sensei continually remind me to relax was as if I had never left the dojo.

Probably the largest hurdle to get over was to accept that I was not going to be able to pick up at my previous level of Aikido, which was 5th kyu going on 4th kyu. In hindsight, I was rather naïve about this, to say the least. Jim-sensei was willing to recognize my grading certificate for 5th kyu. However, once I started to practice, I found out that my ukemi was lacking and my balance and coordination were poor. It was a bit of a letdown and a reality check.

That was not the worst of it. To top it all off, I could remember yokomenuchi kotegaeshi (whether or not I could do it properly, that is another story) – yet if you asked me to stand in ai-hanmi, you’d get a blank look. I realized that I had to start from square one and indicated this realization to Sensei.

While rather sobering to say the least, I was happier for it, because it helped me get my personal expectations under control. There is one upside. I have more patience now, so I’m less frustrated with not getting a technique right the first, second or third time.

Any regrets? I do have one regret – that I did not get back to Aikido sooner. I am getting the same pleasure, if not more, out of it 18 years on.

Going for black belt

by Aubrie Appel

I have been practicing Aikido for many years and I am 56 years old. For the past couple of years, my sensei, Jim Barnes, had been encouraging me to think about preparing for my shodan (1st-degree black belt) test. In August, Jim-sensei suggested I test at a seminar in October —  provided I was willing to commit to hard work and extra practice.

I had to make a decision. A black-belt test is a physically and mentally demanding exam that is normally conducted at a seminar by senior Aikido instructors. There is usually a large audience of students, too. I really needed to polish my techniques (to say the least!) and felt I had to lose a minimum of 15 lb. to have any chance of success. I discussed the matter with my wife Gail and two sons, who were very supportive.

I decided to make that commitment. I would describe the next eight weeks as very intense and grinding.  I attended additional classes  and started to eat healthier.

Jim-sensei and Yumi-sensei (his wife and co-instructor at the dojo) set aside a half hour to 45 minutes each day for special practice. I had to work on performing a very wide variety of techniques smoothly, consistently and without pause, as required for the test. As time moved on, with both senseis’ attention to detail and direction, I got over many bad habits and improved my practice.

Nevertheless, there were occasions when I seemed to stagnate and really had to question whether I would be ready for this exam. However, I could not let myself, Jim-sensei and Yumi sensei, or my family down.

It was important to improve my stamina. After a two-hour class, Jim-sensei and a couple of other dojo members, Vadim and Adam, would throw me around continuously — 25 times without stopping at the start, and building up to 50 times. After a very short break, I would then do my test practice while still winded. Sometimes during these practices, fellow students would leave the dojo at the end of class and wish me “Good luck,” with a grin on their faces as if to say, “Better you than me!”  In the beginning, I dreaded this demanding part of my training, but as my conditioning improved, I actually started to look forward to it.

What helped motivate me even further was that I was losing about two pounds per week as well.  I used to joke with Jim-sensei that this type of conditioning is better than the Jenny Craig Weight Loss Program. I lost a total of 16 lb. in eight weeks.

By the time exam day came, I felt confident about passing the test if all went well. I also felt that my stamina was sufficient to get me through the approximately 30-minute exam. Once the exam commenced and with my wife and son watching, I felt a rush of relief that it was finally here.

Then, it happened.  After I completed the first two or three techniques, I felt a strong, dull tightness in the back of my left leg as if it was about to collapse.  I realized that I had probably injured my hamstring. The thought that raced through my mind was, “Oh my God, I may have to leave the exam if my leg collapses.” Fortunately, I managed to get through the exam successfully. I learned later that I had pulled my hamstring and that it would take about two weeks to heal.

Right now, I can only watch classes. It is frustrating not to participate after training so hard for the past eight weeks. However, my hamstring is healing, so I look forward to beginning to practice again very soon.

I feel so grateful to Jim and Yumi senseis for all their attention and support since I commenced Aikido, and especially for the extra attention I received during the past two months.

I am also very thankful to my wife and fellow Akidoka at Aikido Hokuryukai for all their support.

Lastly, I am thankful to my late father, who always encouraged me to learn a martial art for confidence and self-defense.  I know he would have been very proud.

My first seminars

As most of our students know, we encourage attendance at seminars as soon as a student can take basic ukemi competently. Seminars give you real-world Aikido experience and take you out of your comfort zone.

Sometimes, I describe students who are content to train only in their own dojos as “hothouse flowers.” They have trouble adapting when you put them among the weeds outside the greenhouse.

It’s a big step for a student to jump into the deep end of the pool and attend a seminar, but the rewards are many. One of our students, Tibor Bodor, a gokyu, recently began to go to seminars. We asked him for his thoughts.


“I had watched a couple of seminars since my first day of Aikido training, but I participated in my first Aikido seminar a few months after my 5th-kyu exam. While my schedule was definitely the main reason for delaying my participation in a first seminar, I cannot pretend that hesitation did not play a role. Having been since to a second one after just a couple of months, I thought I’d share some impressions with those who, like me, are at the beginning of Aikido training.”

“Although there is no substitute for participation, watching seminars and classes is a form of training and is a first step to understand what happens during seminars. Feeling too inexperienced to take the next step and actually participate is normal.  But no matter what your rank or experience, it is undoubtedly a learning opportunity. After all, everyone at the seminar is there to learn Aikido.”

“Learning builds confidence, so during my second seminar I was not thinking so much about my inexperience, but rather focusing on absorbing as much as possible. Trying to pick up just one or two concepts is often more enriching than trying to cram all the techniques and nuances into your head. So, at the next one, I’ll try to just get better at just a couple of concepts.”

“Also, during the second seminar, I didn’t just revert back to my usual way of doing techniques. I actually started to make an effort to watch what the instructor was doing and try what they were demonstrating. More often than not, learning is enriched as much by the differences in approach as the similarities. Learning from differences applies also to training with new people whom you’ve never met, as an important benefit of attending seminars. It is about feeling their approach of interpreting what the teacher is demonstrating.”

“And since seminars are more crowded than regular classes and usually include multiple sessions, for the next seminar I will look into bringing another gi to feel more comfortable in the later sessions. Perhaps the training partners may even appreciate it! Part of learning… “

“Not least, my first seminar extended over two days and had out-of-town participants. It was organized by Yumi- and Jim-sensei to celebrate the joint 20th anniversary of their respective clubs. Quite a few of us managed to fit into our Saturday evening schedules a fun dinner (a big anniversary cake included) with our training partners – first of all, because what happens off the mat it is part of the fun of attending seminars!”

Stealing technique

Stealing technique – Respect and traditional training

I started training in budo in the late 1960s as a young teenager. From the moment I walked through the dojo door for the first time, I was aware that different cultural expectations ruled the space. Even though none of the sensei or students were oriental, that budo culture was clear and pervasive. For me, sensing that atmosphere when I walk into a dojo today is the hallmark of a good training environment.

I often see students slowly growing into the same realizations I had to back then. One aspect of budo culture is that the culture itself is very seldom explained or discussed. Most students come to understand it only in a very haphazard way, often through criticism from their sensei or sempai (seniors).

The assumptions behind traditional budo training can be confusing for students raised in a Western educational system. In school, they are taught to discuss things openly, debate and question, and attempt to arrive at truth through a dialectic process.

They can be shocked when they discover that completely different rules apply in the dojo. A traditional sensei has little interest in discussing why training is done the way it is or in entertaining a student’s suggestions on how it can be improved.

It is a very, very old training culture.

Most traditional martial arts were battlefield systems used in feudal Japan, taught through forms – often two-person forms. In those days, the forms were closely held secrets. Since there was a very good chance that a student would end up facing a student from another style in combat, it was essential that the style’s most effective techniques remained a surprise its enemies.

That is the negative connotation of “stealing technique” – spying out technique from a martial school to better defeat it ­ and the teachers of those days were careful to protect themselves.

To keep the art secret, new students were not automatically granted admission to those dojos. They often had to be clan members or supply letters of reference from persons of influence known to the sensei. They sometimes had to serve for considerable periods of time performing menial tasks to demonstrate their commitment before being allowed to practice.

The training itself consisted of copying the sensei’s form exactly. No modifications were permitted. If the sensei saw a student deviating from the norm and “practicing his own way,” that was usually followed by instructions to leave the dojo permanently.

In traditional budo, once you had practiced long and hard and mastered the form, you might receive one of several levels of certificate to recognize your competence. In some cases, students were even encouraged to travel and test the art against strangers.

Morihei Uyeshiba (O-Sensei), the founder of Aikido, came from this traditional background. He seldom explained technique to his students. He would demonstrate freely and openly in front of them, often modifying techniques on the fly. He would lecture the students at length on spiritual matters, which he felt were the real core of the art, but seldom talked about the mechanics of technique. He took it for granted that talented students would be able to figure out the techniques on their own.

That attitude dates back to O-Sensei’s early training. His primary teacher, Sokaku Takeda-sensei, was master of Daito-ryu Aikijutsu. He made a living teaching Aikijutsu while travelling throughout Japan.

His classes often occurred in a seminar format. He would charge the students at the seminar by the technique. They would pay a fixed sum to watch him perform one waza. If they wanted to see another one, they would pay an additional fee for that, too.

Sometimes, his demonstration consisted of performing one technique four times… right and left side and omote (frontal) and ura (reverse) variations. The students would then practice. If they wanted to see the technique again, they would pay again. Takeda-sensei felt he was fulfilling his obligations in full, simply by showing the students his art. It was up to the students to learn or not, as they wished.

It may not sound like a productive teaching method, but Takeda-sensei had dozens of outstanding students over many decades, including O-Sensei, who had learned by watching diligently and practicing without respite.

However, as Japan modernized, modern methods of education began to hold sway. While O-Sensei had not been interested in creating a technical curriculum, the Aikido shihan (masters) who followed him were. Led by the second Doshu (leader), Kisshomaru Uyeshiba (O-Sensei’s son), major efforts were made to standardize Aikido technique and establish a series of tests and a ranking system that would recognize incremental levels of improvement in students at Hombu dojo.

But there is still an undercurrent of the old style of training in a traditional Aikido dojo. Don’t talk during class, but simply follow the sensei’s example as precisely as you can and train hard. Don’t deviate from what was taught.

I remember well the frustration that Yukio Kawahara-shihan would sometimes express during classes. He was the Technical Director of the Canadian Aikido Federation, and he occasionally complained that students did not watch him closely enough to catch his technique and were not making sufficiently conscientious efforts to copy it. That was very puzzling for him. He demonstrated each waza clearly, concealing nothing – but the ensuing practice of some students bore scant resemblance to what he had shown.

The Aikido shihan have often emphasized the need to learn with your eyes – not your ears or mouth – and then ingrain what you have seen in your bones with repetitive practice.

Many of them refer to this process as migeiko (watching practice). Others have referred to it as “stealing technique.” In this context, the phrase lacks the ancient, negative connotation associated with outsiders who would spy on an art’s techniques for their own purposes. In fact, the shihan encourage “stealing technique” in the modern sense of the phrase, for their students.

The ability to “steal technique” in this way is the sign of the superior student. Essentially, it means to watch the demonstration diligently and take ownership of the waza for yourself afterwards with hard practice.

That way, you will never forget it.

(This article also appeared in Traditional Dojo magazine.)

Kawahara-shihan: 1940-2011

It is with great sadness that we inform you that Yukio Kawahara-shihan, 8th dan and Technical Director of the Canadian Aikido Federation, passed away on Thursday, June 2. He had been ill for quite some time.

He was a predominant force in raising Canadian Aikido to the standard it has today. Many of our members got to know him over the years and benefited from his seminars across the country. He will be sadly missed.

The CAF issued the following announcement:

Dear CAF Members,

It is with the deepest regret and profound sorrow that I inform you of the death of Kawahara Shihan.
He passed away in Victoria on Thursday evening.  During his last days he was kindly attended to by a number of his students who communicated to him the great respect and affection that so many of us felt.
More information will follow as it becomes available.

Sincerely,

George Hewson
(President, CAF)

See the CAF website for more information.

See the Vancouver West Aikikai website for a brief biography of Kawahara-shihan.

See our blog for personal memories of Kawahara-shihan.

Kawahara-sensei, a personal reflection

Kawahara-sensei
Kawahara-sensei in Toronto at opening of new Tendokai dojo, 2010. Photo: Warren Chan

I first met Kawahara-sensei at the start of my Aikido career, nearly 35 years ago in Vancouver. I had practiced other martial arts, but Sensei’s grace, power and the utter effectiveness of his techniques were truly amazing to me. That was the start of my dedication to Aikido.

Even after I returned to Toronto a couple of years later, Sensei maintained an interest in my practice, despite the challenges of distance. I went to see him at seminars whenever I could.

The impact he had on me went beyond his considerable presence on the tatami. Off the mats, he was just as impressive – a completely authentic martial artist, words I do not use lightly.

During practice, he was stern and unwavering in his teaching, but sometimes showed a dry sense of humour. Off the mats, he was often casual and friendly, though he held high expectations of his students to show respect properly. He always kept a sense of self-possession, was always “in the moment” and in tune with his surroundings.

His encyclopaedic knowledge of martial arts and profound understanding of Aikido were a constant challenge to his students. Every time you attained a new insight, Sensei would show you how much further you still had to travel. That was how he kept so many students so deeply engaged in practice for so many years.

He was a martial arts genius. I believe he often found it frustrating that so many students had to struggle to understand what to him was simple and obvious.

To spend time with him was an education in what a martial artist should be. He was very private, in the tradition of the warriors of old. He lived a quiet life by choice and carefully avoided the spotlight. Many of his students remember how much he disliked public occasions and either giving or listening to long speeches. His Aikido was for his students, and he had little interest in fame beyond that circle.

The Canadian Aikido Federation was very fortunate to secure his support as Technical Director. Before he accepted this appointment, he was already internationally renowned as a teacher and had a full teaching schedule. He was also committed to advancing the standards of the British Columbia Aikido Federation, a group that had grown strongly under his care. All the position as CAF Technical Director added to his life was more responsibility and more work – which he assumed willingly.

Over the past decade, Sensei’s health declined. Nevertheless, he undertook a very heavy teaching schedule, visiting students across the country whenever possible, determined to raise technical standards for Aikido in Canada and strengthen the CAF.

There was no question of the great affection he felt for his students, coupled with high expectations. In traditional martial arts, a sensei was considered to be almost a father to his students, and Sensei viewed himself as having that kind of personal responsibility.

I had a warm, personal relationship with him and came to think of him almost as much a member of my family, as my teacher. He visited Yumi and I in Toronto from time to time and I treasure the memory of those conversations. It is a sign of his great spirit that I am far from unique…many students across the country had the same kind of experience and feel the same way.

It is difficult to explain the impact of Sensei’s passing. We have lost another important teacher who had personal contact with O-Sensei. It is a grievous loss for Aikido and a profound personal loss for his students across Canada.

His health declined very suddenly toward the end and he passed away a couple of days before I could get to Victoria to say goodbye to him. At the end, he was surrounded by students who expressed their affection and respect for him.

Yumi went to see him a week or so before he passed away. He was serene and fully engaged in his life as its end approached. That’s how a martial artist faces death.

Sensei, we will miss you.
– Jim Barnes